The Words I try

Interring desperation
Inside the bottom of heart
Though can’t get the pretension
Up heal the broken trust
Never find such attention
And thrown with much aversion.

This is evoking or says it why
And ask you the same question.
Never said I hide the time fly by
Screaming for the redemption.
I want those all that mine
And I need such association.

Was a gamble or a tension
Never tried to force it stop
Sometime gets the wondering substantiation
Always proves the guilty job
Ever felt out of probation
And moved away in derogation.

I want to know all that I lose
And don’t want to see you cry
I want to cut off dreaming
And say you the words I try.

For Me

What do you do
When somebody’s memory is talking with you
Do you try to kill that moment
Or do you follow your instinct
Explain me.

What do you do
When your pride is hurt by someone like her
Do you try to blow your mind out
Or do you try to help your loneliness shout
Yes explain me.

But why do I say to you
But why do I pray it though
I can’t let go by
I am too weak to make
I can’t let it die
I am too numb to wake
I can’t even let it stay
I am too stressed to fake
And I can’t back my way
So leaving everything of mine.

What can I do
I can’t turn my back and am not shameless
I can’t hide myself from me
And can’t take it from my inside
I am clueless.

I can’t let go by
I am too weak to make
I can’t let it die
I am too numb to wake
I can’t even let it stay
I am too stressed to fake
And I can’t back my way
So leaving everything of mine.

Crying it out

Cry
Now What I feel
Or what I pretend
What I can and
What I did to let it go
Was I lying or
Was I trying to escape
But now am walking alone
I was pretending
To get it right in pain
So
I am crying
Coz I want to take my breathe back again
I am crying
Coz I want to live the my life back same
But not getting it right now
No not getting it right now
So I am crying.
I rather get you into my heart alone
No not getting it right now
I can’t beg all my parts the same
But not getting it right now
Is that you
Never get it right now
So am crying.
Here is me.

Now what I feel
Or what I pretend
Doesn’t really matter
Coz I was feeling
Every moment I was walking alone
I was pretending
To get it right in vain
So
I am crying
Coz I was pushing it too hard again
I am crying
Coz I was wasting it all the same
But not getting it right now
No not getting it right now
So I am crying.
I rather wash it up all alone
No not getting it right now
I can’t take it out and be the same
But not getting it right now
Is that you
Never get it right now
So am crying.
Here is me.

Who am I

I might know what you want me to say
I might show what you did take away
I might know the answers for what you pray
I might sing the ocean and limit the sky
But I never know who I am
Who am I and what with I fighting to try.

I might draw the pictures that never been drawn
I might cry the blood speaking the rejection
I might fight like a king wearing no crown
I might find the place of my final destination
But I never could see me losing
Who am I and what worth much made me crying.

I might make me feel like real without trying
I might know life’s much too short for denying
I might ask an angel why the sun is out graying
I might not do as I did everyday as you finding
But I never find how I get there
Who am I and how I wasted myself before dying.